December 2009
11 posts
you are the only exception.
one year passed, and i am still in love with you.
why
why is it that every time, without fail, just as you’re about to let go, or at least start to let go, they give you something else to grab onto. Another small piece of hope in them. A phone call, a text, anything. Its like they know you are about to finally start getting over them, so they stop it. They want you to hang on, just in case. I hate it. I wish i could just ignore it, but the...
i find myself smiling for no reason, then i realize it’s the thought of tomorrow that brought this excitement on. i haven’t had that feeling in a long while. it’s because of you. i hope things are different this time. goodnight (:
you have always interested me. maybe this time the opportunity to explore that will come. i really hope so.
to whom it may concern:
please answer my prayers, even if its not what i want to hear. all i need is an answer. i think you’re there, are you? i need help. it’s only getting worse.
screw you.
can’t wait to leave for break.
Sometimes I love Rexburg and all it has to offer, sometimes I cannot wait to get out of here. Right now is one of those times.
Dear boys,
Let me know when you become men. Thanks.
“Feeling like i can’t forgive but i want to
It’s like i don’t...”
– What I Wouldn’t Give- Holly Brooks
Two Things
1. I hate how things I miss most are the little things I never noticed before.
2. I want to do more than… just exist.
near to you.
He and I had something beautiful But so dysfunctional, it couldn’t last I loved him so but I let him go ‘Cause I knew he’d never love me back Such pain as this Shouldn’t have to be experienced I’m still reeling from the loss, Still a little bit delirious Near to you, I am healing But it’s taking so long ‘Cause though he’s gone And you are wonderful...
I can’t take back what you’ve taken away from me, but I can move on with what is left of me. You took my innocence from me— but you will never have all of me… I will forgive you, one day. I will forgive myself, one day. I will overcome everything you caused.
November 2009
9 posts
pure
excitment. i can not wait.
what in the?
more about these people. who in the heck would reprimand somebody for putting out a fire. i didn’t know that water isn’t sufficient enough for that job. apparently baking soda is superior to water in that area now. i guess you learn something new everyday. please, let this semester be over, so they will leave.
these people.
i can’t wait for next semester. I will no longer have to come home to rancid smells resembling that of a dead animal filling my apartment. I won’t have to worry my clothes and hair smelling like the mysterious nasty food that these people make. I won’t have to open my windows when its 20 degree’s outside just so it won’t freaking smell like a cat died and came to life...
blog
the end.
perfect.
“If I’m your boy, Let’s take a short cut we remember, And we’ll enjoy, Pickin’ apples in late september Like we’ve done for years, Then we’ll take a long walk through the corn field, And I’ll kiss you, between the ears, If you’re my girl, Swirl me around your room with feeling, And as we twirl, the glow in the dark stars on your ceiling, Will...
oh boys.
i was reluctant to post this because of the conceited tone it may pproduce. but here it goes anyways. why is it that these boys keep getting attached so quickly! its all the 18 year olds, the pre-missionaries. while i’m stuck in this world of boys, my friends are dating men. The newest trend of these boys is sending me love songs after a week of knowing them. then i’m left with two...
let the walls break down.
Referring to the Quote
Only at an LDS school would you hear friends screaming these hilarious religious references while running down the stairs in the hallway of our apartment complex. I absolutely love my roommate (and bestie). She is amazing. As is the other college (soon to be roomie) best friend! Those two have definitley made this whole beginning of the college experience phenomenal. Even though I’m...
“See you in Heaven. In the Celestial Kingdom. Celestial or bust, baby!”
– Makale Miller
October 2009
16 posts
Pathetic
definition- miserably or contemptibly inadequate.
“A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”
– Anon (via taradenks)
It's Simple
i just want need to go home already. i feel like i’m missing everything. but, the world keeps spinning, even when you’re gone. i wish i could be in two places at once; here, and home. because i don’t want to miss anything here, either. thank goodness she’s going home with me too next month. i won’t miss anything during thanksgiving break, and i can’t wait. i...
“Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s...”
– 500 Days of Summer. starting to like this outlook.
One.
it only takes one single moment to completely redirect your thoughts. or at least that’s how it works for me. I could be sitting with friends, enjoying a movie, then all of the sudden one single negative thought comes to my mind, and that’s it, I’m down. everyone has at least one thing that does that to them. one burden, one bad memory, one trial. i wish this wasn’t the...
“A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the...”
– He’s Just Not That Into You (via eletheowl) (via -photophreak)
“If we could sit together a moment, and talk forever just to pass the time, I...”
– Owl City <3
Exceptional
she woke up to the start of the same nightmare that always haunted her. this would not get to her, she wouldn’t allow it, not today. it was already daybreak; time to get up and run. the room blackened as she stood up too quickly. the sun leaked in through the blinds as she moved around her room to find her workout clothes; today had to be an exceptional one. her heart rate increased, with...
Continuing My Prior Thought
referring to my roller coaster of a day: i woke up unable to move, my muscles were so tense that it was virtually impossible to start my day. i missed all my classes, which worsened my stress, and tightening my muscles more. I’m sick of this weakness. all my weaknesses. it is unfathomable to me that anyone can perceive me as strong. my friends are all so strong, they know my burdens, and...
Rollercoaster
today had definitely entailed the classic ‘rollercoaster’ theme. I’m full of so many different emotions; today has had so many lows, but exceptionally heightened highs. i don’t know where to start. i need to collect my thoughts. hopefully i can write them down later on tonight. such is life.
“Storms make trees take deeper roots.”
– Dolly Parton
Strength
its odd to me that people will tell me I’m strong, I’m a good person. why do they say that? they’ve seen me at my lowest, they know my weaknesses, and how abundant they are in number. they see me cringe at the slightest touch. so how do they perceive me as strong? they don’t see how much stronger they are. they are the ones who encourage me to Keep Moving Forward; to find...
A New Feat
Anonymity makes me feel safe, which is why I have decided to try this sort of online journal as a release, if you will. I do not believe Iam extraordinary, by any means, but I do have feelings, thoughts, opinions. But more importantly, I have a story. These things probably will not be of any significance to most people, but maybe, it will be to at least one person. My goal is to somehow change...